Today over supper ,talked about the mission trip that Zhi Li will be leading to northern thai which clashes with the phantom of the opera date.but that's not really the issue to me..

Aniwei,i dun think i will be going too as it falls on the days where i have classes.And i really dun wish that i give the excuse of not going to class cos the lect might actually not give any more clues for exam and call it God-honouring if i go bcos i'm doing his work n that he will bless me...No...because in the first plc,it's not a gd testimony for my other frens to know that i skip class jus to go for mission trip.
Also,..my mummy didnt really encourage me to go when i mentioned that i was thinking of going.

Then i had some comments about telling my mum that i grow up already,don't have to worry, can take cr of myself. Hmm...of course we kids can always say we can take care of ourselves..but in our parents eyes,we will always be their child.To me,it's how much we show them that we can truly take cr of ourselves even as their worries are still inevitable.
And personally,sometimes it's not that they don't support you in your decisions.Which parent likes to be the "bad person" always forbid the kid to do this do that?however if we think deeper,it all boils down to one main reason,is that they love you and that they are truly concerned about our well-being,and wouldn't want us to suffer any lost if possible as we're their precious child that GOd had given to them and they are responsible and accountable to God to give guidance,esp Christian parents..Therefore in this case, both the child and parent really need to have God's wisdom and guidance to really make a decision and choice. As for me, i can understand why my parents are always so worried about me..cos i also dunno why..i am just always so clumsy,left leg always dunno for wad reason trip over right leg..fall sick easily,get gastric easily even that time i went to thai oso like tt,always suffer injury de..so kinda need to understand why they r so worried over me..and unless i can really show that i can take gd cr of myself, be less clumsy..i think i tell them how many times"i can take cr of myself ..i grow up le.." also no use de ba. cos actions speaks louder than words somehow..haaa!! alright..so from nw,i already trying to tk gd cr of my health,eat more vit C,and be more careful wen i walk ..overall,show them that they can slowly let go of me and trust that i can be alright bcos i know how to take gd cr of myself and lastly for them to realise that God is sovereign over whatever that is going to happen to us,be it gd or bad.And that his protection will be upon his children whever they go.

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