Yest(tue)was on the way to church for sunday worship prac..was looking at my palm..and then i felt there was a sharp lump at the last finger there...i thought it was just xing1 li3 zuo4 yong4..then i feel my right hand last finger..dun have leh...then i went to church n ask li yi if she felt anything and she said yes. TOday i went to see a doc to clear my fears...she said it was a nodue..according to the definition i found online, it is a small swelling or aggregation of cells, e.g. a small tumour, node, or ganglion, or a swelling on a root of a legume containing bacteria.

She said my tendon was kinda dislocated..due to over work of my fingers...n asked what work load did i exert too much.i said playing the piano..she ask me to stop playing piano for this period of time. I recalled,perhaps last few months i had been playing the piano,guitar and violin..everyday will spend some time to prac..plus holding those heavy books of the students during relief..perhaps over strained my finger...hmm..she gave me medicine hopefully to shrink it..if not have to go op...Ahhhhhhh i dun wish to if possible..=/ cos i dunno if the op itself will affect my playing of the piano next time...=/ but well well..God is in control..i just do my part..i'll be guai n rest my hand well ba....can take tis time to dun do housework lol!!!!! jk..

Aniwei a sentence i came across this Christian book..which says" you never know how much you really believe anything until its truth or falsehood becomes a matter of life or death to you" by CS Lewis. He wrote tis in his book when his wife had bone cancer.
It's really true..our faith and obedience in God is often tested thru the many trials in life..sickness,heartbreaks etc..it is when such circumstances exist that enables you to live out real true faith.It is in such circumstances that brings a person down back on their knees(at least for myself) to acknowledge and be reminded that God is in control of our lives.He can give whatever we pray for(not that He is obliged to but He gave becos he loves to give gd gifts to his children)yet he does take away things which He deem not best for us. Therefore..obedience and submission is the only way out to freedom,real peace. Another qn to ponder upon is with regards to all prayers.."if God doesnt give us what we pray for or that everything is taken away from us,will we still love Him??"not easy to ans esp when life is smooth sailing.
It's even more of a challenge to have a thanksgiving heart in the mist of trials than in the mist of a smooth sailing life.
alright i shall stop here. a personal reflection haa...
feel so auntie..so naggy haa...God bless all!!Take cr of yourselves!!

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