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Lydia Tan
Quarter of a century
a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes

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Friday, October 31, 2008
Quiet...

There are topics with certain people in your life which you'd never converse about.
Not because they aren't in your every waking thought.
It's like trying to pin nails through wall- they sear... you understand that broaching on them might rub wounds,make matters worse instead of ,for the better...

despite best efforts to make sure we never forget:"it's the heart that matters in the end".

And across the silence, a sigh speaks everything, without a single word spoken.





Conscience.......











5 more days to exams..........meow.....


written on
1:49 AM

Saturday, October 25, 2008
reflections...

The Dangerous Game of Comparison- 1 minute daily devotions

"...for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstance..." - Philippians 4:10
An armchair philosopher once declared,
"Don't try to keep up with the Joneses.
Drag them down to your level. It's cheaper."

I applaud his creative solution to this age-old problem,
but prefer God's advice on the subject.
God tells us to just not play that game at all.
We fall into a destructive trap when we compare ourselves to others,
because the fact is, there will always be someone who has more than we do.
On Monday we are so proud of our shiny new car, but on Tuesday,
a newer one is parked in the driveway next door.
And that 48" plasma TV will soon pale in comparison to your
brother-in-law's 60" inch model with surround sound.

Here's a guarantee in life - no matter what you acquire,
somebody, somewhere, is going to have something newer,
shinier, and more powerful. So what's the harm in comparing
ourselves to others? Comparison takes our eyes off the blessings
God put into our lives. When we compare our things with others,
we get envious and can begin to feel that we deserve more than they do.
Comparison cheapens our appreciation for what God has done in our lives,
and we can easily shift from gratitude to envy.
God wants us to be content with how He has blessed us in life.


written on
12:50 PM

A nice song to share...

Just the time I feel
that I've been caught
in the mire of self.

Just the time I feel
my mind's been bought
by worldly wealth.

That's when the breeze begins
to blow I know,the Spirit's Call.
And all my worldly wanderings
just melt into His Love.

Oh, I want to know You more!
Deep within my soul
I want to know You,Oh, I want to know You.
To feel Your Heart and know Your Mind,
looking in Your eyes stirs up within me,
cries that says I want to know You
Oh, I want to know You more.
Oh, I want to know You more.

When my daily deeds
ordinarily lose life and song,
my heart begins to bleed,
sensitivity to Him is gone.
I've run the race, but set my own pace
and face a shattered soul,

But the Gentle Arms of Jesus
warm my hungering to be whole.
Oh, I want to know You more!
Deep within my soul I want to know You,
Oh, I want to know You.
And I would give my final breathe
to know You in Your Death and Ressurrection,

Oh, I want to know You more.Oh, I want to know You more.Oh, I want to know You more...


He came to pay a debt He does not owe because we owe a debt that we cannot pay...


written on
12:14 PM

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

You can fly so high....

Keep your gaze upon the sky....

I'll be prayin every step along the way...

Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart ....................





I'm looking out the window

Where we sat to watch the stars

There's a chill within the air

It makes my heart long for your touch

You may be miles away

But as I kneel to pray

I see the same side of the moon

That we'll be looking on when the world turns blue

And know that time and space can't come between me and you

We share the same side of the moon

And though you'll never see all my tears shine through

I know I can't be that far from you

If we're both looking on the same side of the moon.

I picture you across the oceans

In your corner of the world


I pray the wind will blow my voice

And gently whisper in your ear


Your night may be my day

And though the seasons change



It's still the same side of the moon.........................







Corraine May


written on
11:22 PM

Friday, October 17, 2008
feelings......

just came back from last lect of the year...



right side of my throat is swollen again....



tired of falling ill....seeing doc...taking med.......




tired of meeting datelines....






feel like hugging teddy tightly.....

yes I have, a baby kiehls bear........









goodnightz to all....


written on
11:56 PM

personal reflections..

What We Treasure -fr 1 minute Daily Devotions


"...but store up for yourselves treasures in heaven,
where moth and rust do not destroy, and where
thieves do not break in and steal.
For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."

- Matthew 6:20-21

I chuckled when I read a magazine cartoon that
showed a news conference called by a
United States senator who announced
that he was divorcing his family so he could
spend more time with politics.

We may scoff at the folly of his announcement,
but the truth is that many people make
that same statement everyday.
Maybe not with words, but with their actions.

So many more, in fact, that if a politician retires
from his work to spend more time with his family,
it becomes the lead story met with cynicism
on the evening news, while the one who rejects
his family advancing his career is too plentiful to notice.
God tells us we should work hard and that
we should work heartily to the glory of God.

But He has clearly shown that we must have priorities.
Pleasing God and meeting the needs of the family must
have high priority.
Think about the priorities and the things you cherish in your life.

The Bible says that we have brought nothing into this world
and we can take nothing out of it. It's good to focus on the
things that last....



Our giftings, talents, things that we own now are all from Him,
seek to manage and use it well in His way.


written on
12:06 PM

Thursday, October 16, 2008
14 hours later..

14 hours later I'll be on stage receiving my scroll...nothing much to me though..I guess it's the

people who attend and go through tough and happy moments with you that makes it really

special..

It's also more of for parents, they feel glad and relieved that at least they had somehow "completed"

their duty of bringing up their children.

3yrs just passed like that......with all the memories of travelling to school, in school and back

from school...going into the exam hall and the waiting to go in...

how I cope with my exams during times of loss ,grief, together with a broken leg...and times

when I worked and studied at the same time...

Dont know how to describe my feelings though...

Can only thank those that walk through with me during these 3 yrs, no matter at which phase

, for the care,concerns, prayers, encouragements, reminders, help given, eg with the

assignments, printing lecture notes or just simply how to top up the cash card.


During this whole journey,you have added life into my years.

Not to forget my parents and sister, they're always around no matter how my mood swings.

They understand.



I love all of you.








To God be the glory...


written on
12:02 AM

Tuesday, October 14, 2008
It could have been the last day on earth for me...

...... felt the urge to kneel down to pray.....


asking our Almighty God for mercy and grace, for blessings that overflow to the loveones around me. For health and protection against harm....


went out for dinner with family......


on the way back, this car just burge out from the left.....BMW beside us wanted to ture right..which almost banged into us. In addition, the cars behind had to pull emergency brakes which could have just crash into our car... these words cannot describe the sense of emergency then.


Thank God that His hand carried us thru...no injury at all, not even a single hair dropped.

on the way almost turning into castle green...

we witness an accident...taxi banged into motorist...police came.. everyone is alright though a part of the motor flew out..


Everything was just overwhelming...just when we least expect it to....


I believe it's not being lucky that kept us alive, it's not a coincidence that we witnessed that accident...


God can give, God can take....our lives are in his hands, so are the blessings from him.


Blessings from prayers can extend through generations...

nothing to boast but Him..


written on
11:38 PM

Monday, October 13, 2008
.....你还好吗


若这一束吊灯倾泻下来
或者我已不会存在
即使你不爱
亦不需要分开
若这一刻我竟严重痴呆
跟本不需要被爱
永远在床上发呆
馀生都不会再悲哀
人总需要勇敢生存
我还是重新许愿
例如学会承受失恋

明年今日
别要再失眠
床褥都改变
如果有幸会面
或在同伴新婚的盛宴
徨徨地等待你出现

明年今日
未见你一年
谁舍得改变
离开你六十年
但愿能认得出你的子女
临别亦听得到你讲再见

在有生的瞬间能遇到你
竟花光所有运气到
这日才发现
曾呼吸那运气


written on
10:32 PM

Thursday, October 09, 2008
Be still and know He is Lord

Everyday they pass me by
I can see it in their eyes
Empty people filled with care
Headed who knows where
On they go through private pain
Living fear to fear
Laughter hides the silent cries
Only Jesus hears

Chorus: People need the Lord
People need the Lord
At the end of broken dreams
He's the open door
People need the Lord
People need the Lord
When will we realize
People need the Lord
We are called to take His light
To a world where wrong seems right
What could be too great a cost
For sharing life with one who's lost
Through His love our hearts can feel
All the grief they bear
They must hear the words of life,
Only we can share


So much mess in the world, one after another, in so many countries. So much stress from everywhere. So much darkness in this world, of sadness and sorrow.



When ...will ..we ..realise ...that people need the Lord....


written on
11:49 PM